I am trying to sleep but I don't know where sleep is so I'm just going to write down some things till I dose off as it is the battery is low so....
If I were a rich girl I'd spend my life trying to understand the meaning of life ...why we do certain things and not ...

Confusing
3m 3G and all that...lets see what happens
Guru night
Silence love peace smart funny pretty clever intelligent proper sensitive refined 

crazy amount of chasing has begun and this chasing is good...i guess
It was actually very simple...the words come out and the feeling is good.
it ends with contentment and makes me happy.
it was simple and full of happiness.
the puzzle game is not over yet.
good night

Hello there ....btw just wanted to write that I finally bought a new phone and I am enjoying everybit of it .....can't stop fidgeting with it.....
Also I am in one of those lets get lost in a Lala land contemplative mindset.... So I'm just going to make an effort to finish of my novel soon...and then come back here to write down something......
The weekend totally ran at a fast pace hehe....and that Sunday night has dawned upon me....lets see what's in store next week....
Waiting for some new stuff to happen...till then ciao carro.

Hello there...
These days I am supposed to be very tired but..kudos to my system I just don't get tired!!
so here I am ...trying to write something yet again!
ummm well lets see whats on my mind...
BUY AN I PHONE!!
need few liters of alcohol to cleanse my system
need a new haircut
and seriously cut down on carbs...
thinking of making a new furniture set for my pc and bookshelf.
and few other things which I wont write down here...:)

btw, jo hai woh nahi hai...aur jo nahi hai woh hai....;)

till then bye bye

why does it happen that when u achieve the dream which just seemed very unattainable suddenly seems less attractive? I am very excited but why do I feel very strange from the inside? like there is some sort of a silence which I am unable to understand!
It is true...no matter how I try to act like I am independent and bla bla the truth is that I am not...in fact it is very inhuman to be so...when things go our way...psychologically a cushion is formed inside our mind which saves us from all the other random bumpers but the chase never stops.I need a support...I always do need one...and then everything becomes more attractive...

Have been planning to scribble something for soo soo soo long...voices in the head needed to be pinned down somewhere...god knows for what...it took me a brand new PC and a song and many holidays in a row to do this probably! I don't know whats with this activity that I really enjoy yet I am highly inconsistent at it..
every day thoughts which could turn into important notes must be written down.
write to express not to impress.
I could Imagine how nostalgic it would be to revisit these notes somewhere down the line.
ummm....soo much has changed! but of course it slowly sinks into you as you grow older that only change is constant.
sudden attachments and sudden detachment.
Responsibility really does suck...now that it has stuck onto me it doesn't really disappear. It cant be avoided.
Everyday someone reminds you or you have to face the consequences.
well, The thing is I don't have an issue with that as long as things remain balanced.
but things change and then every time the fear infiltrates. the fear of pain. fear of losing. fear of failure and fear of making a decision!
And this trend seems to happen all of a sudden....you can always choose...but you again wonder did I have a  choice? or maybe too many varied choices seem confusing all of a sudden...
off late I realized something that would be very important for my well being.
what kind of a person am I turning into?
Life is messy and that's how we are made.
decisions need to be made and need to be followed.
there is no place for weakness.

More later...
Till then bye bye.

I sometimes wonder what beauty is....How judgmental our mind is....
it makes me pukey when I try and not be judgmental....how can we draw conclusions without being judgmental at some point?
is beauty flawless?do I need it? well, yes its subjective but...will it become less attractive?
I create...u create...we create....but the real beauty doesn't lie there...if only our mind agrees!!

Paul Van Dyk-Crush
I am a crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy....crazzzzzyyyyyyyyyyyy girl.........because I am craazzyyyyyyyyy!!!! :)

But it makes me wait...

If I start counting my dreams it occurs to me that they have many layers .They look like a ballroom gown.Beautiful knots and an exquisite fabric that is soft to touch.
just like my dreams....flowy, natural and stupende....
it has many layers which otherwise hold importance individually.
If I try to dig inside them, I know that most of them are not desires but needs of every soul binded by a thread called love.
tailor made.
so everytime I begin to dream, its actually the same thing all over again but with different knots and change of hues.
I adore my gowns.
But it takes courage to carry them off....I wonder what if I trip and fall? I have to climb those stairs ...
my gowns should fit me right :)
The sketch is ready
it will take a while to make them now...
let nothing change, let nothing make it less grand and stunning...
Because I will adorn them someday
someday...

And it makes me wait...

wow its been soo long since I actually thought of blogging my thoughts ...
but its difficult to not confront some of my budding rather irrational demands which seem more like goals ...
its funny how the smallest of thought can actually grow on you after a while...
never say never babyyy