what should a person do when he thinks that he has the talent but it is not good enough to please himself?
what if he is not gifted? yet he wants to create something that would be a masterpiece?
how does genius happen? and what does one want to be that?
a bit of a struggle isn't it?
Maybe all he wants is to be inspired and the mind looks for paths to find all these things that are like treasure to his wants.
A dash of exploring all that the heart wishes to see, to experience, to enjoy and alas it honestly does want to share it, to just put it out there open to view....its a process to go outward after going inwards.
a long list of new ventures to be explored and how does it proceed? one can only wait and watch.



Yo there
made  an interesting attempt last week.
Thanks to the routine and the comapany of food lovers, I have definitely turned into a foodie.
I always knew I had enough hogging tendencies to understand that I actually do love food.
But the truth is that I hate spending money on food...especially since its become kinda expensive.
mumbai is turning into a sly city where one major  way to have a good time is by going outdoor for meals and most of them really rob you by serving you over priced pretentious dishes.
well variety is there but its not that innovative...so me dislikes...
If I were a chef I would have got a brilliant platform to experiment but I dont see much of that happening..
the menus sort of start looking similar..
same number of choices whether its ordering wine or going for some wannabe Italian dish.
Where are the budding entrepreneurs ???
Its not like I am asking for a fine dining experience. But come on something should be done about it!
so after lots of hogging and drinking I decided to give my liver and intestine some time to recover and went on a random veg and fruit diet.
basically my goal was to avoid oil , junk etc unhealthy food and I succeeded in doing so.
and as an established knowledge ...such plans don't function on Saturdays unless one is planing to turn  into a supermodel which I am not!!
so I managed to have lotsa healthy food and It did make me feel good and all ...but turns out there is way too much scope to improve my diet experience by experimenting with food stuff..
so I think I might get into this whole cooking business and start experimenting with food!
looks like in the coming months the trend is going to change.
fingers crossed! :)


I am trying to sleep but I don't know where sleep is so I'm just going to write down some things till I dose off as it is the battery is low so....
If I were a rich girl I'd spend my life trying to understand the meaning of life ...why we do certain things and not ...

3m 3G and all that...lets see what happens
Guru night
Silence love peace smart funny pretty clever intelligent proper sensitive refined 


crazy amount of chasing has begun and this chasing is good...i guess
It was actually very simple...the words come out and the feeling is good.
it ends with contentment and makes me happy.
it was simple and full of happiness.
the puzzle game is not over yet.
good night


Hello there ....btw just wanted to write that I finally bought a new phone and I am enjoying everybit of it .....can't stop fidgeting with it.....
Also I am in one of those lets get lost in a Lala land contemplative mindset.... So I'm just going to make an effort to finish of my novel soon...and then come back here to write down something......
The weekend totally ran at a fast pace hehe....and that Sunday night has dawned upon me....lets see what's in store next week....
Waiting for some new stuff to happen...till then ciao carro.


Hello there...
These days I am supposed to be very tired but..kudos to my system I just don't get tired!!
so here I am ...trying to write something yet again!
ummm well lets see whats on my mind...
need few liters of alcohol to cleanse my system
need a new haircut
and seriously cut down on carbs...
thinking of making a new furniture set for my pc and bookshelf.
and few other things which I wont write down here...:)

btw, jo hai woh nahi hai...aur jo nahi hai woh hai....;)

till then bye bye


why does it happen that when u achieve the dream which just seemed very unattainable suddenly seems less attractive? I am very excited but why do I feel very strange from the inside? like there is some sort of a silence which I am unable to understand!
It is true...no matter how I try to act like I am independent and bla bla the truth is that I am not...in fact it is very inhuman to be so...when things go our way...psychologically a cushion is formed inside our mind which saves us from all the other random bumpers but the chase never stops.I need a support...I always do need one...and then everything becomes more attractive...

Have been planning to scribble something for soo soo soo long...voices in the head needed to be pinned down somewhere...god knows for what...it took me a brand new PC and a song and many holidays in a row to do this probably! I don't know whats with this activity that I really enjoy yet I am highly inconsistent at it..
every day thoughts which could turn into important notes must be written down.
write to express not to impress.
I could Imagine how nostalgic it would be to revisit these notes somewhere down the line.
ummm....soo much has changed! but of course it slowly sinks into you as you grow older that only change is constant.
sudden attachments and sudden detachment.
Responsibility really does suck...now that it has stuck onto me it doesn't really disappear. It cant be avoided.
Everyday someone reminds you or you have to face the consequences.
well, The thing is I don't have an issue with that as long as things remain balanced.
but things change and then every time the fear infiltrates. the fear of pain. fear of losing. fear of failure and fear of making a decision!
And this trend seems to happen all of a sudden....you can always choose...but you again wonder did I have a  choice? or maybe too many varied choices seem confusing all of a sudden...
off late I realized something that would be very important for my well being.
what kind of a person am I turning into?
Life is messy and that's how we are made.
decisions need to be made and need to be followed.
there is no place for weakness.

More later...
Till then bye bye.


I sometimes wonder what beauty is....How judgmental our mind is....
it makes me pukey when I try and not be judgmental....how can we draw conclusions without being judgmental at some point?
is beauty flawless?do I need it? well, yes its subjective but...will it become less attractive?
I create...u create...we create....but the real beauty doesn't lie there...if only our mind agrees!!


Paul Van Dyk-Crush
I am a crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy....crazzzzzyyyyyyyyyyyy girl.........because I am craazzyyyyyyyyy!!!! :)


there are some days without a smile